Some progress?

So we talked today.

I'm really glad we did.
It was productive in a way, at least it wakes me up a bit.

It was a good reality check.

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We are looking for different things; He wants the fun part and I seeks an end.
Marriage was never on his agenda. ha. How foolish was I.
Thought that he might be different.

But did he realize that the things that he wanted me to make takes a lot of efforts and that kinda of efforts is something I would only do if I see him as someone special? I don't know.

But on the other side, I don't think I'm ready for marriage either. It was just one of the many options that seems can bring us together more easily. I really just want to be happy with him, but learning that marrying me was never part of his picture really kinda baffles me. It dwindled my courage and determination of willing to give out everything just be there with him.

I'm afraid of giving myself all out there again and not receiving the responses that I deserve.
又是一個馬拉松呀 寶貝 只是這個是否值得你繼續跑下去就要看你自己的評斷了!