Sunny Thursday!

Construct n deconstruct; I'm a memory beholder.

Another find today from my old email stuff:

"People became lonely especially when they are deprived to see someone they really care about"

so true.

He doesn't want me to wait for him. What does that imply?
I've already putting all myself out.

Some progress?

So we talked today.

I'm really glad we did.
It was productive in a way, at least it wakes me up a bit.

It was a good reality check.

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We are looking for different things; He wants the fun part and I seeks an end.
Marriage was never on his agenda. ha. How foolish was I.
Thought that he might be different.

But did he realize that the things that he wanted me to make takes a lot of efforts and that kinda of efforts is something I would only do if I see him as someone special? I don't know.

But on the other side, I don't think I'm ready for marriage either. It was just one of the many options that seems can bring us together more easily. I really just want to be happy with him, but learning that marrying me was never part of his picture really kinda baffles me. It dwindled my courage and determination of willing to give out everything just be there with him.

I'm afraid of giving myself all out there again and not receiving the responses that I deserve.
又是一個馬拉松呀 寶貝 只是這個是否值得你繼續跑下去就要看你自己的評斷了!

So stupid.

It was nothing big deal, but I could still turn it into a big swirling snowball. Why do you have to be this stupid?

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I feel so tired of asking, of seemingly being the needy one; but keep on giving and hoping for an impossible reply. YOU can't keep on being like this anymore! You got life here! I think you will be better off talking to someone that can help you. Otherwise you might be going crazy!

The uniqueness of human

Robert Sapolsky: The uniqueness of humans

http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/robert_sapolsky_the_uniqueness_of_humans.html

http://storybank.stanford.edu/stories/robert-sapolsky-explores-what-and-not-unique-about-humans

A wonderful speech and a wonderful human being that we all should learn from him.

好奇

Pandora's Box isn't all that fun, once you get to open that.

Curiosity didn't kill the cat in the end; it consumes your soul and whips your heart.

You looked for that, and this is all you got in the end.

 

However, seriously, who doesn't have a history?

But knowing that tonight really made me kinda "shocked" and realized several things why he doesn't want to do on Fb.

Why is he hiding it?

I don't think I really want to know, either.

Wouldn't that just make me sadder?

 

Plus, I think I have a little more confidence than that. And maybe I need have a bit more confident in him as well.

But Do I? Do I deserve that?

Can I possibly build up the impossible between him and I?

I know I can't do that all by myself for sure.

 

I guess I kinda forget how jealous people can be sometimes.

I forget how that tastes.

 

Can I build up my forever-ever with him? I kinda want to, but I am again so uncertain now.

Maybe again, he's not 'right' now.

I'm so tired of finding one, finding someone that might be the one and then instilling a lot of efforts and love to someone.

 

I need love too.

 

 

 

Testing fun with Microsoft WORD

Oh yeah! Testing! This is sooo cool! I love new Microsoft 2007!