依循心的方向尋夢!

今天在開車去學校的路上
突然有了這樣的體驗
其實這樣的想法一直都有吧
只是今天更加確認了

不能一昧的希望 過去就請北鼻照顧我
這樣對他來說太累了 負擔也太大了
把自己的需求 加諸在別人的身上也是很不公平

我應該要再多獨立一點
至少應該先手上存有一小筆錢 這樣至少過去 或去哪裡 不用爸媽煩憂 也不會給北鼻 太大的負擔

累積足夠的經驗
這樣到哪都能遊刃有餘

就算跟北鼻 真的不幸到後來沒法走到最後
我也不至於無能到完全依賴他

加油!
"依循心的方向尋夢，讓身邊圍繞積極、鼓勵和質感的朋友。"

Detox recipe!

http://nutritionforempoweredwomen.client.tagonline.com/blog/raw-soup-awesome-taste-and-detox-in-a-bowl/

ngredients:

1 ripe Haas avocado, pitted and scooped

2 scallions, diced green and white parts

1 red pepper, seeded and chopped

1 cucumber, peeled if waxy

2 handfuls of spinach

1 small clove garlic

1 teaspoon Bragg’s Liquid Aminos

Juice of 1 lemon or lime

Optional: fresh parsley, basil leaves, cilantro, cayenne powder, almonds soaked overnight in water and drained, etc.

Blend all the ingredients together until creamy – enjoy!

I wanna try it out sometimes!

Sunny Thursday!

Construct n deconstruct; I'm a memory beholder.

Another find today from my old email stuff:

"People became lonely especially when they are deprived to see someone they really care about"

so true.

He doesn't want me to wait for him. What does that imply?
I've already putting all myself out.

Some progress?

So we talked today.

I'm really glad we did.
It was productive in a way, at least it wakes me up a bit.

It was a good reality check.

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We are looking for different things; He wants the fun part and I seeks an end.
Marriage was never on his agenda. ha. How foolish was I.
Thought that he might be different.

But did he realize that the things that he wanted me to make takes a lot of efforts and that kinda of efforts is something I would only do if I see him as someone special? I don't know.

But on the other side, I don't think I'm ready for marriage either. It was just one of the many options that seems can bring us together more easily. I really just want to be happy with him, but learning that marrying me was never part of his picture really kinda baffles me. It dwindled my courage and determination of willing to give out everything just be there with him.

I'm afraid of giving myself all out there again and not receiving the responses that I deserve.
又是一個馬拉松呀 寶貝 只是這個是否值得你繼續跑下去就要看你自己的評斷了!

So stupid.

It was nothing big deal, but I could still turn it into a big swirling snowball. Why do you have to be this stupid?

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I feel so tired of asking, of seemingly being the needy one; but keep on giving and hoping for an impossible reply. YOU can't keep on being like this anymore! You got life here! I think you will be better off talking to someone that can help you. Otherwise you might be going crazy!

The uniqueness of human

Robert Sapolsky: The uniqueness of humans

http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/robert_sapolsky_the_uniqueness_of_humans.html

http://storybank.stanford.edu/stories/robert-sapolsky-explores-what-and-not-unique-about-humans

A wonderful speech and a wonderful human being that we all should learn from him.